My Life and Other Stories

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Sat, 04 May 2013 14:28:21 -0400

How My Friends Describe Me

Fri, 03 May 2013 03:28:32 -0400

I have the most amazing friends in the world they remind me everyday to be strong and to never give up on my opes and dreams. When I am in the most need they have been there for me either physically or spiritually. I admit there are times where I put myself down be little myself and put to much pressure on myself because I feel like I could do better. There are times I get jealous because I see other girls with things that I wish I had such as the perfect relationship, a career or job and a American standard sexy body, I look at those girl with envy and wish sometimes I had what they have. Thinking this way of course makes me feel depressed and makes me wish I was someone else.

If I think to hard and criticize myself to the point of me crying in the corner I am always reminded by some of my special friends that I have the heart, intelligents, the kindness and the sense of forgiveness that most people don’t have. According to one of my closes friends I am the type that is selfless and always tries to make others feel better and forget bout myself sometimes. When I am reminded that I have the capacity to love and forgive others I know that I have both inner and outer beauty. I know that I am not perfect and I know i have things I can improve on, but the fact that I come back fighting and showing who I really am is what makes me standout from the rest of crowd.

According to my special friend I need someone who will look out for me and take care of me in the way I take care of others. Its like that saying goes “sometimes the person who takes care of others most is the one who really needs to be cared for the most.” In someways its true I do forgo my happiness for others sometimes and it kills me that I can’t be happy like them. I know my day will come I just wish it was now.

I know I will meet that man who will appreciate me inside and out. Never betray me never hurt me. I hope I can meet him soon and he will be my prince charming.

Waiting For My Hero

Fri, 03 May 2013 02:48:52 -0400

I dream of that man who will sweep me off my feet and will always love me for me and never leave. He would be there for me be my hero when I am sad and every night hold me close and never want to let go. When I am not happy he would always find away to turn my frown to a smile. Make me laugh and smile never make me cry. He has to be taller than me have arms that make me feel safe and warm and make me feel like im the only girl in the world. He will be the one I will love forever and forever and when we separate find ways to not be fully apart. He would treasure and never want to lose me neither would I. He would always tell me when he was feeling down and I be the one to hold and comfort him. We would be a unit where we helped and loved one another and never gave up upon the other. This man would never regret being with someone like me.

Underestimated

Fri, 03 May 2013 02:23:54 -0400

I hate it when people underestimate me and think I am stupid or something. Really it gets annoying and it pisses me off that I have to prove them wrong. I maybe a pretty face, I maybe a women and young, it doesn’t mean I am dumb or don’t know anything. Come on we are in the 21st century women have more access to becoming smarter and better than men sometimes. I just wish people would stop being ignorant and realize that there is more to me that meets the eye.

Things I've Learned My First Year at UC Merced

Thu, 02 May 2013 23:33:30 -0400

1) Make sure you have 3 pair of spare keys one for your parents, 2 copies for you.

2) When it comes to school bags make sure you can close it on the top and it has many inside pockets. So you can be organized and not los things.

3. Make sure you have a good group of friends you can trust so in case something bad happens you can lean on them vise versa.

4. When it comes to housing make sure you don’t pay more than what you are getting. Make sure that the price you pay is worth the place you will be living in.

5) Make sure you room or live in a place where you can control your utilities etc.

A Letter to All of My Friends

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 01:42:55 -0400

Hey guys I just wanted to let you know how much you mean to me. I don’t say it enough and I want to say it now. I’ve been through a lot and its petty drama between my mom and I and its stupid. It really is. I feel bad that you guys have to see me like this because its not fair to you guys or to me. You should know that I am very thankful that I have friends who try to be there for me even though you guys cant do much for me. Sometimes I don’t know how I deserve to be around such loving and supportive people. It amazes me that me being the person I am has people like you in my life. This last year of being in a UC for the first time has been challenging mentally and physically. Sometimes I don’t know how I survived and live to write this sometimes. To sum things up, I really really appreciate the time and energy you put to help me through my family crap. You have no idea how much you guys have done for me…… I am forever indebted to you guys…. If there is anything I can do for you guys please don’t hesitate to ask. After all I have been through and still fighting I am always mentally and physically will try my best to be the best friend I can be to you guys after all I owe you guys !!!!

My Dream Boy

Sat, 06 Apr 2013 02:32:00 -0400

1) Be a good man and come from a decent family. Both parents because hey i a man comes from a good family he will be a well rounded man.

2) I want a man who values life as much I do. No smoking, drugs, drinking only for special occasions or for a health thing recreational.

3)Patience. I need a man who is patient because we aren’t perfect and I want someone who will be there for me despite my faults.

4) Respect. I need a man who respects who I am and who my family is. I want him to get along with my mom and dad and my friends.

5) I want a man who is romantic, thoughtful, intelligent, forgiving and nice. All of these qualities are key to my heart and I want someone who can take care of me and be there through the good and bad.

"Ask me a question"

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 23:47:51 -0400

“Ask me a question”

- ask.fm/IgnaciaChuJacoby

Some Random 5 Facts About Being A Literature Major

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 18:57:47 -0400

For anyone who underestimates Literature majors you should know that we aren’t stupid, nor are we wasting our time and energy for something meaningless. Here are some facts of what makes Literature majors awesome.

1) As a Literature major we can can adapt and learn other subjects outside of our realm such as; basic computer science, psychology, sociology , history, math you name it.

2) When we read those long or short books/text we are trained to critically think and use everything we’ve learned in other subjects to analyze or argue what we think the book or text is saying to the audience or us as individuals.

3) As a literature major we can surprise those who look down upon us with our views on how we see the world and the people we live with. Basically taking from the books we read and everything from our environment to our day to day lives we can see things in a technical and sometimes colorful way.

4) Of course when people find out you are a Literature major its assumed that all we do is read and write all the time. As a job profession we can take on more than you think for example some of our fellow alumni have gone to law school or become our entertainment critics. There are many opportunities for us to work as hard as our fellow peers.

5) Lastly without English /Literature majors who would help you guys write for grants etc. Sometimes writing is someones weakest spot, but hey thats why you have us to come in and write it up for you. :p

10 Things That remind Me of My Ex

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:54:57 -0400

1) Reddit (He always loved it always went on religiously).

2) Mac and Cheese ( I use to make it for him and me all the time. One of his favorite meals).

3) Cat meow songs ( He use to play them to make me laugh)

4) Card Games (We use to play them all the time and become competitive)

5) Google (anything with Google he loved and talked about with me even taught me about the new things that google offered)

6) Movies ( thanks to him, I caught up with my movies and became a well read movie person)

7) Root Beer Floats ( we use to make them all the time)

8) Androids ( He loved his phone and talked non stop why Apple should die and made me see the light on Apple)

9) Adventurous ( he was always up for trying my cooking and loved it all)

10) Cooking ( he and I loved to cook and share our culture and recipes it was one of the best bonding moments we had).

rachaelmakesshirts: St. Patrick’s Day is just around the...

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 18:07:08 -0400

rachaelmakesshirts:

St. Patrick’s Day is just around the corner! Did you know that I have two shirts for my green-loving Zelda and My Little Pony fans just for this occasion?

Shop them here :)

To The One I Loved

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 15:17:43 -0400

There was a man that I once loved, and I still love him today. We had our ups and we had our downs, but instead of bolting I decided to stay. I maybe crazy I maybe insane, but in the end I feel that its the right thing. I love you. I love you there’s no way of getting out of it. Some people can lie to themselves and say they don’t love their lost love for me I can’t. There is something there and I can’t pin point it. What can I do? In my gut he is the one for me. We may have differences, but in the end it comes to this. When you love someone it last forever. It may linger and always will when you look them in the eyes. My heart beats fast and when I fall asleep my eyes linger with tears thinking of him. I don’t know want to say goodbye I don’t want to leave with the what if’s of life. I wish he would see there is more to me than a pretty face and a kind heart. If I were like any other girl I would of left a long time ago. I would of left him and be with another man. I didn’t do that because it is wrong. Also because my heart is in his hands. Regardless what happens I will always love him from the bottom of my heart. I will always remember him as the man who stole and broke my heart more than once. He is also the man I cried and cried over more nights than i can count. Love you forever and always……………..

I normally hate Miley cyrus music but this song is so beautiful

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 20:29:00 -0500

I normally hate Miley cyrus music but this song is so beautiful

A Message To Women and Girls of the 21st Century

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 18:54:43 -0500

You know what I don’t get is why some girls have to be slutty in order for themselves to feel pretty or attractive. It just shows how shallow those girls are and how insecure they can be. True beauty comes from within and not just looks. Dressing and posing like a slut, doesn’t make you attractive at all it makes you look like someone who sleeps around. I just hate how some girls feel pressured to be that way because they feel like thats what will attract men to liking them. There is nothing wrong with showing some skin, but there is a proper time and place for it and classy ways of going about it. I just hope that girls out there realize that when you dress like a slut you are guaranteed to get douchebags and womanizers waiting to take advantage of you. Men can be so cruel to women these days and it hurts me to see those girls jeopardize their reputation, and self worth by dressing so provocatively.

Real good men would not want a slut for a girlfriend or even wife. Any decent human being would want someone who knows who they are and is not an attention whore etc. A real man would want a well rounded person who is confortable in their own skin and doesn’t care that they are different from the rest of the pact. What really sets you apart is your personality and how you react to any given situation. Also intelligents. being stupid is not attractive its actually frustrating at times. *sigh, really if being dumb is what you think is what makes you special I am sorry to say its not the most desirable trait in society. If you be who you really are, you will find yourself a happier person with people who really care and like/love you for who you are. id they don’t its their loss not yours. You can always do better.

For the men: Look I know you can’t help yourselves with being attracted to those slutty girls, but really those girls can be trouble if you aren’t careful. Heck some of them have the worst baggage and insecurities that can bring you down if you aren’t careful. Just saying……

To sum this rant up I just want to bring up awareness on this topic since it seems to get worst as the younger generation doesn’t seem to be really aware of the consequences of their choice of clothing attire and what is deemed as attractive in a person. What I hope women and girls get out of this is that its ok to be different and not show every part of your body just ato appease men. You are special in your own way and deserve only the best of the best not less.

PL Reprise

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 23:00:20 -0500

To PL who’s been in and out of my life. You never size to amaze me and put a smile on my face no matter how I feel. You always remind of who I am and who I use to be. You always remind me that no one is perfect and that I need to let others do things for me once in a while. When we talk its like we never had a lapse in time of no conversations or on contact with one another. We get along so well that the lapse of time doesn’t make it awkward at all. He knows me best especially when I try to put on the tough girl persona. He knows how to get to me and yes sometimes knows how to provoke me. In the end he aways leave me wanting more and always makes me feel at ease and peaceful. I know this bond is very special as can be and its something to treasure and not throw away. Someday or who knows what will happen, I have a feeling we won’t fall away or disappear from one another life. We will always somehow magically find one another.

Two Mes

Fri, 01 Feb 2013 22:46:51 -0500

I have to admit that there are times where I feel alone and there are times where I let myself get abused. Its never physical its usually mental and and verbal. I don’t know why I let myself get abused in those ways its usually because I’d rather deal with that than be alone. Its sickening I know and when I look at myself in the mirror what I see is a broken girl who is trying to be as perfect as can be. Here in the town where I go to school I am that broken girl inside who smiles and tries to be cheerful as can be about it. Back home I fall into this role of being the girl who everyone thinks is little miss organized, sweet, kind and knows what she wants and whats she’s doing. Thats what they see and in reality its not the whole truth. My fears is to be alone and I know thats stupid since I am almost never alone it just feels that way now. In my heart I just want to find that inner peace where anything I touch won’t hurt me in any way shape or form. Also that I can have one of me and not two that seem to play two different roles.

Missing PL

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 21:41:28 -0500

When I look into your eyes i see nothing but kindness and sweetness. When we talk its fluid as can be. Time goes by yet we always find one another and re connect as if we never said good bye. The memories I’ve had with us have always been good and never bad. I have known him for three years and my feelings haven’t changed one bit. As time goes on I know we will meet again. In my heart I know we will someday soon. I miss him and wish he was here with me, Someday I know he will.

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Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:27:49 -0500

thats me lol

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:27:28 -0500

thats me lol